I think I may have a problem. It occurred to me the first time a few months ago in a yoga studio, as I lay prostrate on the hardwood floor repeating some mantra about surrender, and then again last week, as I was pumping my fist in the air at the stage and feverishly chanting love, love, love . . . that maybe I’m a little overly able to “get into” things. Corny things. Bougie things. Happy things, that in the end, really spell out trouble and money loss.
To be honest, I hadn’t even really wanted to go to the concert that night. It shames me to admit this — but I am not the concert-going type: I get awkward, or I get bored, or my feet get tired, or the artist’s personality/engagement is disappointing, and generally I’d just prefer to stay home with my headphones and avoid spending the twenty-five to fifty bucks. But I do have a list of three or so acts that I’ve always wanted to see in person, for various idolizing and/or personal reasons, and one of them was The Polyphonic Spree.
“We have to go!” I told Jurvis a month ago. “It’ll be a crazy freaking show! They’ve got like, twenty-five people in that band, and a freaking orchestra, and they all wear white robes and sing about the sun.” (What can I say. Culture is meaningless to me, but I’m a big sucker for spectacles.) We purchased the tickets and promptly forgot about the whole thing for the next four weeks, and of course by the time that Monday night rolled around I was just tired and cranky and wanting some combination of a beer and sweatshirt, but we’d already paid, and so we we were obligated to push ourselves onto the subway and rocket into the night to be dumped somewhere near the bright lights of Fenway, where, coincidentally, a game had started not an hour before.
“Is that . . . the club?” I asked, pointing at a shadowed sign. Two lonely, skinny bouncers sat on stools underneath it, sucking wanly on cigarettes. There was the sound of a giant crack, like a hollow head hitting pavement, and across the street, the impossibly far-away crowd cheered.
Let’s go Red Sox! (Clap clap, clapclapclap.)
I was not excited, even then, with the ethereal glow of major league baseball spilling onto our skin and the darkness of the club beckoning like a prostitute on the curb. We slipped fingers over our IDs and filed dutifully into The Avalon.
In this fashion the street swallowed us up.