Day 18: Postcards From a Jazz Age

This weekend Steve visited from Minneapolis, and Dennis visited from Kansas City, and because New York is all eager to impress, we crammed in as many activities as possible. Friday night we went to Sleep No More (amazing! Also, confusing!) and ate at a terrible pizzeria off the High Line, and Saturday we took a ferry to the Jazz Age Lawn Party on Governor’s Island.

Caught up in wandering the grounds and getting our pictures taken, by the time we thought about eating lunch we found the real food lines were impossibly long — stretching around the perimeter of the party and into the dance floor. So we waited for them to shorten. And waited. Dizzy and excitable by five o’clock, it suddenly occurred to us that we had only consumed St. Germain cocktails and strawberry vanilla ice cream since noon. (Other short lines: vintage hat store! Guess who was drunk at the hat table? Guess who owns a hat?)

So I offer that caveat before sending you to the full album of photos, where you will see me with a traffic cone on my head, and Dennis with his face stuck in a construction barrier, and Steve balancing on a railing, and inexplicable push-ups in the grass.

“Uhhhh . . . who wants another elderberry liquor cocktail? We’ve got to use up these goddamn tickets.”

It was a pretty good weekend.

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Day 17: Stranger in a Bookstore

This photo is actually another from the readings at The Moth, because I didn’t take any pictures at all on Day 17. On Day 17 I met up with a former photo teacher I’d really admired for dinner (professionalllll!); this wound up starting significantly later than planned when I got off at a stop in Manhattan thinking it was Brooklyn, and then tried to walk my way to the correct location.

It was pouring rain and by the time we connected I looked like an orphan, hair plastered to my forehead and backpack heavy with rainwater, limping around in heeled boots. He showed me the darkroom built into his apartment, some prints he was working on, the crazy view from the balcony; I tried not to leave wet buttprints on his furniture.

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Day 15: At The Moth

Brendan and I met up Tuesday evening to stand in line for two hours for The Moth tickets, because long lines are always worth it. I was leaning against the bookstore wall busily shoving quinoa and apricots in my mouth (I’m not a rich person, I just play one in NYC), when he said “Oh, and my friend Julie is coming.” He looked down at his phone. “She’s here now actually. Hey baby!”

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Day 14: Trains

The 1 train was unusually crowded that day, and barreling along at unusual speed; I was standing toward the center in heeled boots, considering my loneliness. When the train jerked suddenly, one of my legs slid and bumped into the foot of a woman sitting down.

“Oops! Sorry!” I said to her over my shoulder. The train wheezed forward.

I felt something banging against my calf, and I looked down. It was her foot. She was kicking me repeatedly in the leg. Not hard, but persistently. Kick. Kick. Kick.

Ha! I thought. This must have been some kind of hilarious miscommunication!

I turned to face her again, smiling in mutual embarrassment. Look at the two of us, right? Strangers on a train, casually beating one another by accident! “Hi there!” I smiled again, louder this time. “I said, I’m sorry!”

Her eyes locked with mine. They were prickling with rage. I don’t know that I’ve ever been looked at that way before. Kick. Kick. Kick. She didn’t stop, and even if I hadn’t been frozen in alternately amused and horrified bewilderment, there was no room for me to move. Kick, kick, kick. What was going on? Ha! Wait. Seriously though, what was going on. Ha! Seriously?

We remained in our positions staring into each other’s eyes until my transfer at Union Station, and she kicked me and kicked me and kicked me.

“Sheesh. Can you believe it?” I’d say to a friend on the phone that night, wandering the pier. The breeze was cool and good, couples leaned into one another and pointed, and Manhattan glittered across the river like a movie set. I felt safe and happy here, seating myself on the floor of the dock, talking to him. I stretched my bare legs out in front of me, pressed my face against the guardrail. “She didn’t look crazy otherwise. I mean, she was just another professional, leaving work, and also hating me a lot. I really just did not see that coming.”

He probably said something he often says. “What the crap, Adrianne.”

We would laugh about it, we would laugh together, everything would feel fixed.

That night I would dream I was chasing after the trolley in Minneapolis, all Goodbar red and yellow, symbol of childhood special occasion. In the dream I was a very childlike adult — draped in a green oversized poncho and running in the pouring rain, watching my sneakers hit the grass, arms airplaning at my sides for balance. I reached the trolley just in time, but it started to pull away then, cheerfully choo chooing forward. I ran until I was alongside the car. I grasped for the conductor’s arm. “Could you stop please?” I cried into the window. “Please? Stop? Can I get on? It’s pouring out, I need to get home!” He turned to me with narrowed eyes.

He told me I looked like shit. He told me I needed to get my hair fixed, do something about those roots, don’t I own a hair dryer? “It’s been raining,” I responded, confused. He said it didn’t matter. He said he could tell the East Coast had changed me, that I wasn’t welcome here any more.

I stopped running. I watched the trolley pull away, until it had disappeared.

Pictured: the park at the pier, midnight.

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